Nine Inch Nails

NIN

One of the first concerts we both went to was a NIN concert. May 12, 2000. Fragility Tour v2.0. I had just turned 17, he was 18. We still hadn't met yet. He was up front, I was on the lawn. Then we saw them again June 9, 2009. Wave Goodbye Tour. Same pavilion even though we no longer lived in that state. We sat in the middle, together.  Strange how some things come around.

So here is a song that just fits what I am going through. This is me recording in June 2009. I can hear him...

Lyrics: Something I Can Never Have

I still recall the taste of your tears
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep
Anymore

(Chorus)
You make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just one thing
And I'm starting to scare myself
You make this all go away
You make this all go way
I just want something
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now
This thing is slowly taking me apart
Gray would be the color if I had a heart
Come on, tell me

::Chorus::

In this place it seems like such a shame
Though it all looks different now
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be
Come on, tell me!

::Chorus::
I just want something I can never have

<<<I miss you so....>>>